Snapping these first "real" outfit pictures in almost a year was fun! I visited my favorite semi-abandoned backyard and everything went perfectly. I used to fear the possibility of someone catching me doing faces and fashion-y poses alone in my corner, but now I am way more relaxed about it. No more paranoia!
Here's a confession: my timidity almost made me quit style blogging altogether. I was insecure about how people would perceive me if they found out I had a blog with 1) all kinds of personal thoughts and 2) so many pictures of myself. I got teased a bit about this whole fashion thing by family and friends and it made me doubt if style blogging was something acceptable to do. And you know what? It is.
I had a few job interviews over the last months and every single interviewer asked me why my blog was now inactive. They liked how I had merged some of my biggest passions into one entity. Fashion, writing, photography, design... this blog of mine offered me a chance to do all of this. So why abandon it like I did? Sure, I had a busy year, but I had quit blogging because of insecurity and shyness. I've always had a bit of a I-don't-care-what-you-think attitude, but this time, I had let other people make me doubt of something I was passionate about. And I was too proud to admit it - even my lovely boyfriend asked me why I wouldn't blog anymore and I kept denying. I had stopped writing, taking pictures, making playlists for the blog, designing little graphics, thinking about DIY projects... and I was wondering why I was so miserable. This blog was my playground, a little world I had built for myself to share inspiration and I had stopped visiting it.
I think now is a good time to claim back this playground. The blogging scene has changed a whole lot in the past year(s), but I know who I am and what I like. I do not blog for likes, recognition or a seat at local events. I blog for passion and solace. This blog was created by a suburban 17-year-old who had just gotten into design school, was experimenting with personal style and obsessing with street style photography. Sure, I have evolved, but this 17-year-old was building something without even knowing. She had stars in her eyes, big dreams for her future and had fun sharing all of these.
I blog to keep that spark alive.
O U T F I T D E T A I L S
Top by H&M • Skirt by UK2LA via Stitches • Socks by Ardène
Vintage shoes via Comptoir Emmaüs • Old floral headband from unknown source
Beta Frontiers • So Cold